On Spiritual Darkness

ON SPIRITUAL DARKNESS

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SILENCE

Prayers arid, my spirit dry,
Reasons for which I know not why,
You've hidden Yourself far from me.
And all I hear is
Silence.

Reciting from my prayer book,
Upward to Heaven's way, I look
My soul searches for just one glimpse
And all I hear is
Silence

Clutched in my hand, the Rosary,
O why have You forsaken me?
I hold it tight, hope for Your light.
And all I hear is
Silence

Despair invades me, dark and deep,
Torments my soul, elusive sleep,
Up to the skies, O hear my cries,
And all I hear is
Silence

Will You not leave the ninety-nine?
To keep this little soul of mine?
I taunt You, want You, come to me!
And my answer...still...
Silence

Outdoors, in winter's night I see,
Barren branches, a lonely tree,
Moonlit fingers sway with the breeze,
At last, I've found You!
Speaking...
In Silence

© CTherese; January 02, 2002
Based On Actual Experience

Music is "Moonlight Sonata" by Ludwig Von Beethoven

" Therefore when God gives spiritual comfort,
receive it with thanksgiving,
but know that it is the bounty of God, not thy merit.

Be not puffed up, be not overjoyed,
nor vainly presume, but rather be more humble for this gift
and the more cautious and fearful in all thy actions;
for this hour will pass away and temptation will follow.

When comfort shall be taken away from thee,
do not presently despair; but wait with humility
and patience for the heavenly visit,
for God is able to restore thee a greater consolation."

The Imitation Of Christ Bk 2, Ch9 Vs 4

"Now, Jesus, I go the wrong way. They say people in hell suffer eternal pain because of loss of God. In my soul, I feel just the terrible pain of loss, of God not wanting me, of God not being God, of God not really existing.
Jesus, please forgive the blasphemy -- I have been told to write everything -- that darkness that surrounds me on all sides. I can't lift my soul to God: No light, no inspiration enters my soul."

From The Journals Of Mother Teresa Of Calcutta